The chaos is not only around me. It is within me. My stomach churns and I regret the thought of food. I also regret the fact that I’m even in this boat in the first place. But, I realize He is there. Yes, the same Jesus who called to Peter across the stormy sea, also calls to me. “Do not be afraid.”
I desire to focus on Jesus, and not to be distracted by the turmoil around. Yet, one moment I am finding peace and purpose in Him, and the next, I am fearful that perhaps I will step out of the boat, head toward the spot where my Savior stands, and sink midway. At different times throughout the day, I find the weight of the comforts of this world tethered around my ankles, threatening to pull me down below the surface. It will be a miracle if I ever make it to Him.
But He has performed such miracles before. Reminiscent of Peter’s words, “Lord, if it is you, command me to come to you on the water,” I have asked, “Lord, if this is Your plan, work out the circumstances so that we can go where You want us to go.” Much of what seemed nearly impossible only a month ago has already been secured. Of course, it was secured long before I ever knew what the options were.
The Lord of the storm is also the Lord of life and all things are under His control. We must not let our fears distract us from the goal of glorifying God or allow our eyes to linger on the massive waves which continue to swell around us. If Jesus can silence the physical weather, He can certainly quiet the emotional storm that threatens to overwhelm us.